I was a baby once. Many preferred to call me a fetus but we both know I was a baby, a little human person in someone's tummy. I wasn’t born yet when my mother choose to not keep me. It’s okay though, mainly because of Him.
He knew about me before she did. When she was with that man who some might label as my dad, He was the one putting me together. I felt His hands putting my cells where they needed to be and shifting them into my parts.
What He formed the most though was my heart. Sometimes it would tickle and giggles would have come out if I had been able to make noise. Other times it wouldn’t feel too good, the rearranging, and I didn’t like it but He told me “Don’t worry, this won’t last long. It’s for your good my love.”
He said that a lot, my love, beloved. He whispered it to me and held me in His hands. He protected me. When my mother was debating about whether to stop my life, my heartbeat, before I even had a chance to breath, He stepped in. He whispered His love for me into her ear; He whispered His love for her too. She listened and decided His to just give me up instead.
I think I should have been more scarred but He didn’t let a lot of her words or lack of love ever find me. All I knew was His love. He promised that He had chosen me, knew one day we would walk outside together. He promised His love for me was forever and it might be awhile before I knew His love fully but it would always be there.
So, I was born. I was given up and He guided me into a family. I grew up and one day, just as He promised, I knew His love. His hands were once again forming my heart. The pain that had happened because I thought I had been alone, He healed it. He showed me how He had always been with me.
I passed through the waters during birth and He was with me. I walked through the fires of this painful life but they did not burn me. He formed me and I was delivered right into His waiting arms because, as he says, “You are mine.”
These days we walk together, talk together, we even live together, He in me and I in Him! He shows me His love more and more all the time. He protects me and cares for me like no one else can. And He whispers to my heart that He loved me before I can remember, before I was even born. Because, you see, I’m an adult now but I was once a baby.
