Mine eyes were crafted to look upon beauty
I have been made to search for beauty
Beauty is good to behold
It opens the mind to the things unseen
It beckons beyond oneself
Opening up to the greater picture unfolding
Beauty is beautiful
How does one become beautiful?
Is it by the perfectly applied face paste and lip dye
or could it be the ten miles ran and weights lifted for perfection?
Is it the returning of leftovers into a dingy toilet
or could it be the time spent on evaluation and money for suction?
How about beauty of the nature?
Does it come by the carefully planned and planted flower arrangements
or the trimming of bushes into strangely shaped beings?
Does it happen through the money spent on water upon green
or the attraction of false forests called parks?
Beauty is beautiful
But then where does beauty come from?
From spontaneous atoms colliding
or humans designing from our meek minds?
What of beauty of the soul
Could that come from our own inspections and reformations?
I want beauty
I want to behold a sight that causes drops of salty wetness to fall
to be stunned so that my lower jaw hangs horrendously with droll dribbling out
to touch that which causes my heart to stammer and putter
to taste that which would cause my blood to become flames and ice at once
to smell that which would remind me I’m home
to hear the thunder of sweet symphonies and be in complete bliss
Can I have this beauty?
Though only the shadows of this beauty seem to be visible to my eyes
Though the cloud of this world gets in the way
Though it is hard to fathom how perfect beauty can exist
I want it
And I want it from the one
from he who created it
Who embodies all that is and ever could be beauty
To see perfect white made more pure by scarlet drops on the edges
Watch as his children become more beautiful
Through his healing that always follows our wounds
Through his goodness that always follows our crap attempts
Through his love that always flows every second of existence
His eternal, not our temporal
I guess that is what happens when I get a glimpse of him
I always go away wanting more the next time
My stomach is stretched out and I just want it filled to the brim of his goodness
His beauty or none at all
Maybe I’ve become a beauty snob
But I don’t think I could ever consider anything beautiful without Him or his touch
Beauty is beautiful
not like it’s obvious
And I want nothing else but true beauty
I have found beauty
My eyes are fixed upon my Holy King
Listen to My Beloved by Cory Asbury
Monday, November 8, 2010
Love of dreams with Jesus
I had a dream and in this dream was a couple. A man and a woman. In love? He is pursuing her. This is what transpired in that dream.
They were walking along a path in mid-day
Holding hands, laughing, smiling
A light in both their eyes
As the two joked around the woman ran ahead.
Laughing while turning to look back at him
The man took off after her, her purser
He caught up with her
Holding her in his arms while the two laughed the afternoon away.
They continued to walk
Speaking of life and how it is found in Jesus alone
Speaking poetry written on their hearts
Speaking their views on so many aspects of life
Resting in each other’s presence
Bringing out joy and peace in one another
So obvious
Day turned to evening as they sat under a tree
Eating a spontaneous picnic
Their conversation continued with ease
and hardships when they opened up bit more
about each other’s past, scars, fears, struggles
And the peace that comes with knowing Jesus
and praying
Evening turned to night as
The stars sparkled their way into being
As conversation continued
They paused; long to watch the wonder of creation
The man spoke in hushed tones scripture written on his heart
Praising God for all
She whispered mostly dreamily, a tiny bit scarred
I love you
Another long pause
He had been waiting for her to say it first for
She feared it and so he left it to her to say it first
and she had said it
He still sensed her fear no matter how little it was
He answered
I love you as well
and I know some part of you still fears that
she answered – it does but I do love you
and I guarantee you I like it when you tell me that
more than I fear it
You have shown me lies that I have believed
Through you God has shown me men are not only able to love
but willing and openly love
it will never be perfect like Jesus’ for me
but with Christ leading us in this it can be closer to anything
I’ve ever had with a human as love can be
She paused and smiled
He sat up and looked at her
He said yet again I love you and
I will be patient with you at all times
I will be kind to you
I will not envy or boast
Nor will I be proud in this
I will not be rude to you
I will not be self-seeking in our relationship
I will not be easily angered by you
I will keep no record of wrongs
I will not delight in evil
but always rejoice in Truth
I will always protect you
I will always trust you
I will always hope for us
And this will always persevere
This is what I mean when I say I love you
I will never be completely this at all times
for I am still a human and that is
the sickness of our kind
But with Jesus I will always strive for this and allow
His love for me to shine to you
into our relationship
I will constantly pray that I can be this to you
And
I will always let you know I love you
in words, in actions, in all the little things and big things
I love you
He smiled and praised God that the Holy Spirit had
led him to speak his heart in a way that could
encourage hers with gentleness and truth and love
Oh How great You are God!
She praised God for putting this man in her life
Who was gentle and patient yet still pushing her to grow
that through Christ’s love for him, he was able to love her
like this
and she could return that through Jesus in the same
Oh How amazing You are God!
She told him
I love you
and promise the same in those words
they smiled and hugged in a way that goes beyond anything spoken
They laid back down on the grass
holding hands
wondering at the stars
And Jesus was the center of their relationship
flowing through every aspect of it
Soon after he walked her home, slowly
They spoke goodnights not wanting to leave each other’s presence
After a hug they parted ways
Knowing they would see each other tomorrow, and the next day, and the next
With each day God growing them more in His love
and in their love
Oh What a dream!
They were walking along a path in mid-day
Holding hands, laughing, smiling
A light in both their eyes
As the two joked around the woman ran ahead.
Laughing while turning to look back at him
The man took off after her, her purser
He caught up with her
Holding her in his arms while the two laughed the afternoon away.
They continued to walk
Speaking of life and how it is found in Jesus alone
Speaking poetry written on their hearts
Speaking their views on so many aspects of life
Resting in each other’s presence
Bringing out joy and peace in one another
So obvious
Day turned to evening as they sat under a tree
Eating a spontaneous picnic
Their conversation continued with ease
and hardships when they opened up bit more
about each other’s past, scars, fears, struggles
And the peace that comes with knowing Jesus
and praying
Evening turned to night as
The stars sparkled their way into being
As conversation continued
They paused; long to watch the wonder of creation
The man spoke in hushed tones scripture written on his heart
Praising God for all
She whispered mostly dreamily, a tiny bit scarred
I love you
Another long pause
He had been waiting for her to say it first for
She feared it and so he left it to her to say it first
and she had said it
He still sensed her fear no matter how little it was
He answered
I love you as well
and I know some part of you still fears that
she answered – it does but I do love you
and I guarantee you I like it when you tell me that
more than I fear it
You have shown me lies that I have believed
Through you God has shown me men are not only able to love
but willing and openly love
it will never be perfect like Jesus’ for me
but with Christ leading us in this it can be closer to anything
I’ve ever had with a human as love can be
She paused and smiled
He sat up and looked at her
He said yet again I love you and
I will be patient with you at all times
I will be kind to you
I will not envy or boast
Nor will I be proud in this
I will not be rude to you
I will not be self-seeking in our relationship
I will not be easily angered by you
I will keep no record of wrongs
I will not delight in evil
but always rejoice in Truth
I will always protect you
I will always trust you
I will always hope for us
And this will always persevere
This is what I mean when I say I love you
I will never be completely this at all times
for I am still a human and that is
the sickness of our kind
But with Jesus I will always strive for this and allow
His love for me to shine to you
into our relationship
I will constantly pray that I can be this to you
And
I will always let you know I love you
in words, in actions, in all the little things and big things
I love you
He smiled and praised God that the Holy Spirit had
led him to speak his heart in a way that could
encourage hers with gentleness and truth and love
Oh How great You are God!
She praised God for putting this man in her life
Who was gentle and patient yet still pushing her to grow
that through Christ’s love for him, he was able to love her
like this
and she could return that through Jesus in the same
Oh How amazing You are God!
She told him
I love you
and promise the same in those words
they smiled and hugged in a way that goes beyond anything spoken
They laid back down on the grass
holding hands
wondering at the stars
And Jesus was the center of their relationship
flowing through every aspect of it
Soon after he walked her home, slowly
They spoke goodnights not wanting to leave each other’s presence
After a hug they parted ways
Knowing they would see each other tomorrow, and the next day, and the next
With each day God growing them more in His love
and in their love
Oh What a dream!
Frustrated Venting of a Changing Heart
Shit, it just feels good to say it
let it out
the frustration
the changes
I could say what evs
could walk away from these feelings
not tell you
I’m pissed
not tell you
I’m frustrated
tired
that my brain hurts
Shit
but I’m not running away
and I’m telling you
Why so much at once
guess it means I have to
rely on you
doesn’t mean I want to
that’s why you have to make me
but what’s strange is
I still love you
need you
to breath, move, live
all of it
I suffocate without you
So in the midst of this shit change
I feel joy
and hope
and Love
let it out
the frustration
the changes
I could say what evs
could walk away from these feelings
not tell you
I’m pissed
not tell you
I’m frustrated
tired
that my brain hurts
Shit
but I’m not running away
and I’m telling you
Why so much at once
guess it means I have to
rely on you
doesn’t mean I want to
that’s why you have to make me
but what’s strange is
I still love you
need you
to breath, move, live
all of it
I suffocate without you
So in the midst of this shit change
I feel joy
and hope
and Love
Catching up
I haven't posted in awhile. This is me posting stuff I've written over a long period of time.
My rendition of Psalm 33
I sing and I dance
in response to His unfailing Love
for He is faithful in all that He does
I shout and I leap
in reply to the Creator of the starry sky above
the creator of all the earth and all the peoples
I play and I skip
in answer to His firm plans for the intentions of His heart
not mine nor the plans of the nations
I hum and I stroll
in the echo of He who watches me
He who is forming my heart
I rejoice and I bound
because my hope is in Him to deliver me
not a large army, nor strong warrior
I praise and I worship
my God whom is my help and my shield
in whom I trust and give my heart, my all
I sing and I dance
in response to His unfailing Love
in response to His unfailing Love
for He is faithful in all that He does
I shout and I leap
in reply to the Creator of the starry sky above
the creator of all the earth and all the peoples
I play and I skip
in answer to His firm plans for the intentions of His heart
not mine nor the plans of the nations
I hum and I stroll
in the echo of He who watches me
He who is forming my heart
I rejoice and I bound
because my hope is in Him to deliver me
not a large army, nor strong warrior
I praise and I worship
my God whom is my help and my shield
in whom I trust and give my heart, my all
I sing and I dance
in response to His unfailing Love
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